Sooooo the last two weeks were busy. I had and upper respiratory infection, viral. "No antibiotics" said my lovely Russian doctor. We adore her. My throat was affected so I had no voice. Got teased a lot. My sister says I sound like Kathleen Turner. Others, say I sound masculine. Jim Carrey as Vera DeMilo is one. Personally, I think I sound like Harvey Fierstein... "I gotta call my mothuh! I gotta call my housekeepuh! I gotta call my lawyuh! Ah, fuhget my lawyer!" See what I did there? A little #IndependenceDay reference? #ID4 is huge in our house. Anyway, I'm healthy, thank goodness. Went to my doc for a follow-up and even got my flu shot.
It's currently cold and rainy in my neck of the woods. Perfect. No, really. Just perfect. I love this weather. I'm a fall baby.
Another thing I did was catch up on things for my kids. As you all know, the reason I began this blog is because my ex-husband has decided that his current family and situation is more important than supporting his children from his third marriage. The one when he was married to me! Yup, you're reading the words "third marriage" and probably saying "THIRD MARRIAGE"??? I didn't know I was the third, believe me. In fact, I thought I was the second. Even now, there's still debate about how many of us there were/are. Debbie, Sheila, Lisa, Becky, me. Not necessarily in that order and a not-so-fun fact I found AFTER we separated. Sociopathic and narcissistic, don't you think?
Well, my ex is now about many, many thousands of dollars in arrears. Rent is late, again. My daughter had a growth spurt and needs new things. Boots. Clothing. A coat. My son is saving for his tuition. The courts are STILL undecided as to how to handle this. There's no support for this #SingleMom or any mom like me. No money coming in from the non-custodial parent has a devastating effect. This home is riddled with anxiety, (thank you, Dr. Dick) and the NYS court system is a joke! The one luxury we have is cable. Necessary. The Wi-Fi is needed for homework and work. The tv is an escape, the kids and I bond over our favorite shows. However, the tv just went on the Fritz. It just keeps clicking and won't turn on. I called the company and they have given me misinformation, TWICE! Way to go #Samsung.
Back to the two weeks... My cousin married his beautiful love. As I watched them recite their vows and many times during their reception, I felt HAPPY. I saw pure LOVE. I saw sheer JOY. And for the tiniest second, I felt sad. For myself. I don't think I ever had that. Felt that kind of love and probably never will. I'm also okay with that, I have my children. When I looked at Ray and Karina, I was so happy that they have each other. My Ray is a wonderful man. He and my baby sister, Jean, are the youngest of our generation. He lived across the street from us and was always with us. He was like a little brother. He is a genuinely nice man. And good. And funny. Karina is beautiful and a joy to be around. They are really a good couple. I can't wait for the babies!
Another plus for me, my work environment changed. It was rough going for a while and then it all changed. I feel different when I walk in the building. Better. Lighter. I pray that all my colleagues are happy and feel that way too! Change is good. So, let's see where this goes.
Sunday... it's cold, wet and dreary. As I posted on Facebook yesterday, it's the kind of weather that inspires my soul. I love this time of year. It's easy to feel joy and see good things in the heat and sunshine. It's when you see it on days like these, or in the attic blast of winter, with a foot of snow on the ground... THAT'S when you know - you're going to be okay.
This #SingleMom asks that we all take care of one another. #LoveEachOther
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